I have been absent in my work.
I joined Deviantart 9 months ago with the intention of doing something with my art. I figured, 'Hey why not join a site where I can post pictures of the things that I do so other people can see them! Having a fan base might help me actually get me to do things and not procrastinate with wasted hours on facebook'. But lo and behold, I have yet to post anything new or useful.
Not long ago, billygoatsgruff favorited a photo of mine and I was ecstatic. Someone out there saw a picture I took and liked it!
It was a definite "Wheee!" moment.
All the excuses, of how my computer had fried and ate all of my other photos, of how I have been busy, and sick, dealing with awkward life problems, of how I am as not creative or as talented as most of my friends sort of turned around at me and stuck out their tongues.
"See?" they seemed to say, "you must have done something right at least once."
"But...but, I haven't done anything in months! I haven't sewn or crafted, or baked, or gone out taking photos or-"
"So, get over yourself, and this funk. Do SOMETHING! The more you post, the more likely people will see you; unless you just feel like sitting around and feeling inadequate all day."
So despite my trepidation, I think I will try creating things again. Most of my friends are artistic, and I always feel as though anything I make pales in comparison to what they do. It leaves me feeling like an idiot child holding up a disfigured sculpture made of plasticine to Leonardo Da Vinci, asking if it's any good.
But really, I should create work to try to be better than I was yesterday, and not compare myself to others.
So here's to being creative for the love of creativity! Be it a story, or a photo, or something I've created, I will do my best to keep my head above the nasty waters of my inferiority complex and fight the bitter battle against my jealous nature.
Because really, I didn't make a banner of origami for my living room to be better than my friends. I just need to remember that.